farewell mr kwek; farewell 05S11'o5.

05S11

i remembered when i first stepped into this school, i had no sense of belonging at all. even till the next six months, seven or even eight, i still do not have the sense of belonging to the school. but somehow, i started to feel attached to this school. thank you 05s11 for being a part of my life, thank you mr kwek for contributing to this school for the entire five years, thank you mrs tay for your understanding, thank you mr tong, mr chan, ms leong, mr ang etc for helping me and teaching me without fail every step of the way. thank you dancers, thank you parade commanders, thank you study group, and really, thanks to everyone for being a part of my life. i truly appreciate it. (:
germaine's latest entry did surprise me. teachers reading our blogs. HMMM?! it seems that we can't hide anything from them. especially through links from one party to the another. its such an easy feat. oh well.. refer to germaine's blog for more details! so i shant elaborate much on the last day of school. also, the farewell of mr kwek, who's leaving for nyjc on the 15 december.

i finally managed to get myself a job! i need to plan my schedule soon! it's getting real tight. horribleeee. study, outings, work, dance practices, ogl camp etc.. aah! and my piano lessons and all. laureen is leaving for new zealand soon! )): need to plan an og gathering soon before she leaves. and hey laureen. remember our outing with claire. :D

chinese ao exam tomorrow. -shrugs- i had an unproductive day. lazed on the sofa watching teevee. spending my day aimlessly. i had a lost of direction in life now.. but i know, once pw is over, i'll be free. (:

all the best to people who's taking chinese exam tomorrow. we'll go through this together! love!

not forgetting......

goodbye Malan Road

mr sas was hilarious. he kept trying to correct our movements and i kept smiling away. and he'll go, 'MARILYN!' and ill give him a big big grin. hehehhees. we knew that he's a super super fierce teacher. but somehow, when it comes to dance, he's always the friendly and humourous one. so i couldnt help giggling when he started commenting on our dance steps. :D

im still having troubles with body wave! but i know i'll feel so proud of myself when i master it. hmm.

met up with mummy for dinner after dance practice. and started to watch my wang zi bian qing wa teevee show. xD i cant wait for the next episode i tell you. and im gonna miss next friday's show. im gonna work that day. hmmm hmm. i've got my secretary to help me out with the show. lalalas.

im trying to plan my holiday schedule. it's freaking tight! ogl camp, dance practices, study time, work.. EEEEWWWW! was asking mrs tay if i should get myself a job attachment instead. and she said 'YOU! STUDY STUDY STUDY!' =/ but i think i should get some sort of temporary one for extra income! (:
oh yes! we'll be performing on the 15 NOVEMBER 2005 at SUNTEC CITY okay! dance competition! yesyes! come down to support us! love! (:

that was what the conversation i had with mr kum this morning. this is damn shit i tell you. he scared me off! and i started having thoughts if i'm able to have direct promotion. i'm very clear that i did terribly for my CA. i don't want a RE-EXAM! NO NO NOOOO!

what if i'm at a borderline pass? so what if i'm at a borderline fail?

promotional exam results were out yesterday. however, the overall report card will be given out only by next monday. the entire school waited for two weeks! and yet we got to wait for another. #&%*$*@!$ to tell you the truth, i'm more afraid to take a re-exam than to be retained. as for my results...

RAHHH!

i'm hoping to see a confirmation of my direct promotion.

the entire atmosphere in my class has changed gradually. results results results. it's always out to kill students. the crazy fanatic active and most importantly, the smiles! where are they?

i'm officially an OGL. but i may quit anytime i suppose. i don't feel exhilarated upon hearing from felicia that i got in. i don't feel sad at all. i'm soooooo cold blooded. -.-" i hate the process. that's the main reason why im not happy about it at all.

had public speaking course by julia gabriel today. at least, it taught me skills when presenting my oral presentation. talking about this, my group spent 5 hours on those slides, which are not completed yet. booohooo. from 4 people becoming 3, and now, maybe it's gonna to become 2. aaah!

i'm so restless that i can't even think about it anymore.

-staring intently- its gonna fall its gonna fall! (crystal & her boyfriend; and me)

group picture! (from top left: crystal's bf, crystal, me, weiming(in blue cap), chowfei (in black), darren & gf (in white), weiwang & lishi) (:

alicia left a few minutes when we came while crystal (the fashion designer!) and her boyfriend came after that. yupyups. left settlers cafe at about 12.30am. took a cab back with lishi and chowfei. reached home at about 1 am. watched a taiwan drama with mummy till 2plus. *yawwwnnnns* thanks everyone! i had a great time with you people! love! (:

s11! visit there soon! hold a gathering or something! i think its better than clubbing after our exams. heh.

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sound like an advertisement! ooops!

OGL trial was alright. somehow, i still do not feel a sense of belonging. or maybe, im not a cut for that. im not being pessimistic here or whatsoever, im just not fully appeased by the choice i've made. i may be wrong, or i may be correct. or perhaps, it's somehow not what i wanted after all.

OP is around the corner. had the first trial yesterday. i would say i messed that up. reason being that i was not prepared at all, not at all. and i just did it on the spot. i feel so aimless. chinese AO is around the corner too. i did nothing. i wished i have. but there isnt a spur on me to motivate me.

i wouldn't deny that i aint living happily. i'm just a ship without my sail. i wouldn't know what's the answer hidden in there. maybe, thats the struggle that im going through now.

raaah! what an entry. slept 14hours today! i feel so energetic! gonna hang out later. its fashion show! and its my dearest senior who designed those jeans! SOOOO EXCITED! :DDD gonna chill out at raffles too. yippeeee! hula hula hulaaaa!

wednesday: the entire CCA struture is on a major revamp. everyone was really down. the atmosphere was a dead silence. 50% of the cohort lost their ccas. many became 'unemployed'. it was announced that most of the CCAs will be closed down by the end of this year. only a minority made it to the core CCAs for next year. and yeah, fortunately, we dancers made it. however, we were not happy at all. yes, we should be feeling happy cause our CCA still intact. but, most of the people around us were frowning and we could see tears welling off their eyes. we could barely see any smiles. sitting in the dance studio staring at the people outside, our hearts sank. obviously, many of the students were infuriated. i really couldnt understand why CCAs like rugby and canoeing will be closed down. much as we could see, the efforts that everyone has put in, ended up to be in such a state. and actually, i do believe that some CCAs will still survive as the whole thing has not been finalised yet.

today: GP lesson was a total BORE! staring at the four walls, staring at mr ariffin, looking at the tables and chairs like an idiot. but ended up playing daidee with henry, shawn and shukleng. bahhh! dialogue session was being held in the lecture theatre to hear out from the students. i guess the principal has his own difficulties. i dont know whats the results. wells. i guess this gonna carry on till next week. shrugs.

not a very eventful entry. but hey, anyone knows when the holidays are starting officially? thanks! :D

caught up with some of the dancers. watched their performance! love it! i feel so great as a dancer. and i took a small video during their performance.

next was band performance. sat at the odac table. thanks to kelvin liew for that! hahaha. supporting cheryl, xiuli and serene! ((: their band performance was awesome!

walked around.. hafiz came. so did jonathan. oh yes! you know when i went to buy strawberry plus watermelon juice.. i was soooooo touched! the stall vendor still remembers me! a warmth in my heart! and i asked for nata. in the end he gave me LOTS AND LOTS OF NATA! hahahaha. :DDD went to the auditorium to listen for some sec4 talk. im a poser.. as a sec5 student. hahahaha! kelvin poh accompanied me. after that had lunch. western food! IT WAS YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY! the stall vendor sort of remembers me. HEHEHHEES. then saw sherman tooo! theres a saint asking me if im a sec4. hahaa. and i told her the truth. she's sooo friendly okay. its the saints spirit! oh wells. had a walk to the dance studio too! heres!

awww. i missed there! dance dance dance. oh yeah. didnt manage to meet mrs helen tan. disappointed though. ):

anyways! headed to town. lianhong accompanied me after his work. we walked around.. and saw some superstars at the heeren.

i want junyang! but he aint there! )): besides, there's a fashion show at taka.

aint those lil girl cuteeee! i love their wings! ((: and and! that cute guy up there! -faints. gonna catch another fashion show next week! its my senior who designs the jeans. awww. i hope im the one seated. hahaahaha.

night out at wheelock place. had some drinks, cakes and muffin at coffee bean. yum yum!

and out there! theres a percussion performance! ooohhhhhoooo!

more pictures under snapshots! thats how i end my entry. tadaaa! :D

actually, nothing much to comment on. had dance practice today as usual. for hours! yeaah. but halfway throughout, we were so lethargic that we laid on the floor. just simply a few minutes and we dozed off. zzz.

about 30 minutes later.....

i woke up. im simply like a caterpillar, lying on the floor aimlessly. it's such a toll on me. and its time to continue practicing. had filming today too. we need to send the file to the company to get through the preliminary rounds. hope it's a success! (:

and yeah! finally! i've booked my air tickets. thanks to tony for all the help! :D and its booked. from 19 december to 28 december. and guess what. im going with friends! a sense of liberation here. yipeeeee! by the way, we were told to inform the school if we're going overseas. what's this?! =|

career seminars for tomorrow. damnn. i guess i'll doze off again.

went shopping with mum on sat. and shopping with girlfriend yesterday. bought a green top and pink stripe mickey mouse blouse. guess what. my dad said he lost this new blouse of mine. aahh! and im gonna buy it again. raaahhh!!! and the problem is. im getting more and more busy. dance practices every single day. my back is aching! alrights. just put more effort and do our best for the upcoming competition. but there are still some movements i've yet to discover. hmmm..

its enrichment day today. had a seminar talk from mr kenny toh about making a difference. it was a total disaster. zzzz. understand? =/ later. had 'first impression last' seminar. quite a no. of guys coming in to the lecture theatre wearing black suit. and everyone went 'woaaah!'. and wondered wheres the MR SINGAPORE; mr manhunt. the talk was hilarious. AWESOME! and we saw the MR. SINGAPORE - mr joshua luke. he's the hilarious one. and same goes to coach jay. at least coach luke is much better. and he has his own ways on handling people and stuffs. benefited quite a lot from this. the best seminar i've ever had? (:

alrights. back to my dance practice. catcha. (:

yesyes! i'm FINALLY back! back from all those mugging sessions! yes! PROMOS HAS ENDED! i can't believe it. the day that im hoping for has arrived! awww im soooo SOOO EXCITED! shall i blog about my papers?! HMMM?! :DDDD

i shall blog about today's papers. wells.. i think i screwed my papers up. my chemistry paper 1; i couldnt manage to complete it on time. same goes for paper 2. i totally had no idea whats going on for mass spec. relative abundance and all. and it came out on condensation which i really didnt touch on it. and that 6-pointers sat beside me. SHE EVEN SLEPT DURING THE PAPERS! SHE WROTE A LOT AND ITS LIKE EASY FEAT FOR HER?! besides. i was half stopping the bleeding from my pimple, half doing the papers. and it bled terribly! )): econs was worse off than chemistry. those mcq questions were all purely from my assumptions. data response?! i answered the wrong answer at the beginning. so yeah.. )): nvms. i believe i can do better next time. my consolation. aaaaahhh! and and! chinese AO exam is coming right up. i guess after enjoying my promos holidays, i shall start prioritising my time. oh by the way, i failed my piano examination. sighhhhh! im not gonna retake it. i guess im gonna continue with grade 8. wasted 250 bucks just like that. anyways. mum said it was expected. and i think its really expected. boooyahh. i scored 91 marks. just 9marks to get a pass. -FROWNS.

i think the debate over the students 'flaming' teachers are really getting overrated. its like.. we students have our own freedom of speech. and we can only pen it down here. if we talked about it outside, isnt that known as defiance? and suspending bloggers are SOOOOO WRONG! those articles are reflecting their misconceptions! oh my oh my. i cant see a reason why must this debate be in such a way. aint there advantages instead of disadvantages of blogging? siggghhhh!

oh yes! not forgetting to mention, during our break, half of my class queued up for the vegetarian stall. its like more than 10 of us okay. and one of us was saying, 'EH! everyone's afraid of the results or what. how come everyone becoming vegetarian?!!' LOL! we were so amazed about the queue. an unexpected queue. and i told daddy when he fetch me back home. laughing like mad cows ;X oh yeah! also, after the econs paper, we were asked to stack up those chairs and tables since we were the last to use the hall. guess what?! my class guys DISAPPEARED IN THE AIR. how amazing. wells, exception for shawn and samuel; the twins! how SWEET can they get! helping us with those chairs and tables.

not going out during the weekdays! ahhaa?! apparently, i wanna STAY at home and WATCH teevee! yes my dearest teevee! its teevee time you see. the 7.30pm show on CHANNEL U makes me real addicted. how i wished theres a prince like him. and i dream...*PIAKS*

shopping spree is gonna start soon! yesyes! its been like weeks since i last went shopping! and i havent been meeting my girlfriend for long. tmr isnt the day to enjoy. i THOUGHT i could enjoy my day tmr cause its NO-SCHOOL DAY! but i gotta go back to school for dance training. competition starting.. but yeah. its hip-hop. MYYYY FAVOURITEEE!! :DD and i heard from peijun theres plenty of schedules coming up. -SHRUGS-

last but not least, a big thank you to eugene, kahheng and longcheng for teaching me during this promos period. ((: haha. and my homemade cooked barley drink that made eugene feel like URHGHHHH. LOLS. its like super honey sweet drink! due to the fact that i added too much rock sugar in it. sheeeesh. alrights. ciaos!

TIMEFORPARTY!!!

shan >* heys darling! i've replied what you've asked in your blog comments already. (: take care yah?

zero plus seven >* my boyfriend! :DDD hahaas my korkor la.

Kenneth >* kenneth uncle?! or..?! thanks. (:

Jeremiiiieee >* RAH! i just came back! miss me? hah. hows you dude? catcha soon alrights? (:

germs >* haiyooo! it depends on interest! next batch gotta do at least one humanities. geo is worse off. i struggled during the first three months already. but then, interest first, aint it. (: